kinda hurt, kinda depressed. i'm missing him. he asked me whether i was okay, but i only said i'd be alright because i don't want him to be sad, too and because i was a little bit sick of him. actually i'm only disappointed because of the first promise he has broken- but that one means really much to me. i always try not to be jealous at all and to ignore the little hurting things, but as i have already mentioned it is really disappointing to watch how he doesn't even ask to be excused although i know he's as disappointed (yeah, i use that word often.) as me, but he's waiting for me do say something like i'm waiting for him to talk to me, so in the background there's now this silly silence i just cannot live with. maybe because it seems to me like our conversations are so superficial ('cuz of that thing hidden in the background).

like new york without sinatra..

~german: Germans who are not able to speak a little bit English shouldn't read this at all.


SORRY FOR BAD ENGLISH AND FALSE TENSES !




kathie,
i'm missing him.._