kinda hurt, kinda depressed. i'm missing him. he asked me whether i was okay, but i only said i'd be alright because i don't want him to be sad, too and because i was a little bit sick of him. actually i'm only disappointed because of the first promise he has broken- but that one means really much to me. i always try not to be jealous at all and to ignore the little hurting things, but as i have already mentioned it is really disappointing to watch how he doesn't even ask to be excused although i know he's as disappointed (yeah, i use that word often.) as me, but he's waiting for me do say something like i'm waiting for him to talk to me, so